Abusive Friendships Aren't Worth It; Why I Left The Rust Punk Tribe

Hi All,
I have a sad, but necessary announcement: After 6 years of making occasional noise for them, I have parted ways with The Rust Punk Tribe.  I wanted to use this opportunity to hopefully empower those who are in a similar situation to what I was in to leave that part of their lives behind because it isn't worth it.

I met the founder of The Rust Punk Tribe at a local bar, who would later be DJing there, really into old school industrial music like Throbbing Gristle and Einstürzende Neubauten.  I remember he introduced himself as Zach, and wanted to make industrial music together since we both liked a lot of the original, underground artists. We decided to jam, and as I understood it, I had well explained I had a band and needed a new member, Zach had said nothing otherwise, my parents were even willing to let us use their basement:

I am immediately yelled at for trying to monopolize the music because this person wanted to release everything we did together under his solo name at the time: ViVi Vex, despite breaking my synthesizer within one jam session. Zach then makes no attempt to contact me, we speak again by the time we've both moved up to the Denver area. Amends are made, so it seems, but Zach has no place to live because he's getting kicked out of someone's place again. Interestingly enough, Zach's story has gone from wanting to get a number of "body mods," including gender reassignment surgery, nickel poisoning, and scales to become "the next Marilyn Manson" to suddenly saying Zach is Vivian now, but doesn't dare say it's for attention anymore. Poor Zach is still "discriminated against" for ignorantly getting an eye tattoo, my ex and I let him stay with us anyway, and he wants to make music with us in Fill The Void, so hes says, but even though he isn't the only one to suffer from an anxiety disorder in the group, it would be a personal attack on him to have it as subject matter even if the rest of the band wanted to write about it. We had wasted our time adding him to the line-up and our cartoon rendition of the band. Zach then randomly leaves with his mother with little notice, and threatens to call the cops because he left stuff in my ex's car. We once again stop talking for a long period of time...

Fast forward to around 2016, I fall for the fake apologies again, and we're talking; he passes the blame for calling the cops to his mother, and by this point there's supposedly a name for all the various collaborations that Zach has compiled: The Rust Punk Tribe, and he was going to make a huge group of artists big and small to create a giant collaborative album. This idea sounded fantastic, and Zach is able to convince Sin Quirin to record a riff for "Industrial Music Culture" or some similar bs, and even personally told me he purposefully omitted the name Rust Punk Tribe (I can't remember exactly why, I can't say that's entirely on him); The first song released under the name is Outlet, and it's actually just an old ViVi Vex track (one of only a handful to ever exist): Out, with more instruments added, and it still isn't technically complete, I was asked to work on material for it, and I did:

Rave Dave and Marc Urselli sent stems, ViVi complained about the keys Ogilvie sent, and wanted a musician friend of mine, Jeff, to contribute and help cover up some of them, specifically because of how popular Jeff's band was. I asked Jeff to help, genuinely somewhat excited at the time at just the thought of so many artists working together. Zach flaked on Jeff because a band he had toured with's member had supposedly said something that offended him and would be bad for his PR, and I of course got scolded for making any creative suggestions about the track and attempting to record anything other than noise, and had previously gotten scolded because I spent a little free time mastering the previous version to be helpful. Suddenly, this group that's supposed to promote the scene is going to put all of the famous contributors on one track, so it became a vanity project, because ViVi Vex would still be on it, and even on Soundcloud he releases it as ViVi Vex, then lists all the other artists involved instead of crediting The Rust Punk Tribe, and even deleted a stem from someone when sending music to Sin just to get him involved. A track another local artist and I contributed to was released the same way on a compilation, that eventually became unavailable, but we were never informed it had it existed in the first place. ViVi increasingly gets more demanding, and asks all of his friends to start contacting celebrities on his behalf, having the nerve to tell us to say "ViVi Vex invites you" and egotistically makes sure that he asks us to add what famous groups people are from and awards they've won, as if they actually matter to anyone already famous; I didn't do it, I just never told him that. He grew perfectly comfortable with yelling at me if I got an artist interested in the project that wasn't one he specifically wanted involved, and would bitch at me to get him press instead.

Around this time, Zach acts buddy buddy with Combichrist instead of wanting to "never talk to anyone in the aggro scene" and begins recording a "solo album" by hiring people to play because he can't actually play any instruments, except simple MIDI measures on a synth, and brags that Dave is going to be helping free of charge even though his keyboards apparently weren't good enough before, and suddenly anti-everything noise artist extraordinaire ViVi Vex has wanted to record a cleanly produced rock album the whole time. Yet, Marc is upset he worked on something for The Rust Punk Tribe that still isn't out according to ViVi, but I know Marc isn't the only one, and I know that firsthand. But apparently this is the more important project for ViVi at the moment "solo" material made by everyone else and sang over. And in the usual narcissist fashion, ViVi once again name drops famous people yet has to also explain why they're famous, brags about filming at the sand dunes where Stars Wars filmed at in Arizona even though they're public and anyone can take a camera.

Zach is now being discriminated against for being gay, transgender, and an eye tattoo? And begins to post progressively more and more hateful rants on Facebook (and was unsurprisingly banned 30 days for this)  about people based on their skin color, sexual orientation, and "gender," and tried to justify someone berating me for not being pure "white" as "not racist." The final nail in the coffin was recently when I shared a video about making industrial music with ViVi. I just wanted to publicly share a process I was using to show a friend some production tricks, and showcased his own piece at the end. Of course, ViVi promises to share said video, but then criticizes me for not using the same software, FL Studio. I was recently in a car accident, was working on scheduling a surgery, had a hard drive die, had just been screwed financially by a company who paid their employees to lie under oath in court when I sued them after they destroyed thousands of dollars of my property, and had family visiting for holiday. Zach has the nerve to tell me I'm not there for him, and I told him my that issues at hand and seeing my family were more important than making him rich and famous, and that the reason no one is there for him is because he seeks sympathy through petty self sabotage and that most us of can't handle it, or the people who can are so hateful they'll divide from him anyway. He responded by threatening to delete me from Facebook, and before doing so sent a message there that simply reads: "Actually fuck it, fuck you." What a fantastic rebuttal, spoken like a true intellectual with any credibility. ViVi still has unfinished Fill The Void material I wouldn't put past him to steal, but for me it's worth not having to deal with constant mental abuse and compulsive lies.

I apologize to the industrial music, anti-fascist, and LGBT communities for my complacency that allowed a narcissist to exploit them. I apologize to myself for subjecting myself to abuse, and keeping a terrible human being in my life that was likely rubbing off on my character in negative ways, and apologize to everyone for all my negative actions of the past, including those of a similar nature. I also wanted to warn any musicians he may solicit that he looks up to Brian Warner, and is even more willing to throw you away than he was. . .

2018, Will be a Year for Music!!

Hey all!
Quick update: I just finished Polarination this month, and additionally I completed an instrumental track thereafter I entitled "Nowhere To Hide:"

I have uploaded Polarination to Youtube for streaming, and put the iTunes preorder link under the video:

Pre-orders are also available on Amazon, and Google Play.

Additionally, I wanted to give a shoutout to the artists most prevalent on my label right now:
Disturbing Taxidermy and Exhaled Life. I will be working a lot with these artists and plan on releasing a lot of their material in the future!


I'm also working with another local artist, Goretek, here's his collaborative project with Disturbing Taxidermy:
Jeremiah Whitman, bandmates with Romero (Disturbing Taxidermy) and I, recently completed a remix of I Don't Want To Live This Li(f)e, a track Romero and I had made while jamming last summer:

I'm excited for 2018 and feel more inspired than ever, and am hearing so much good new music and working with so many great (some of them rather new) artists!

Climate Change/Happy New Year!

For some reason, I see many people who want to think that it doesn't exist or that they know everything about it. Here are the facts: The EPA and NASA have been measuring a rise in CO2 in the atmosphere and a general warming trending in the ocean, with temperatures expected to continually rise. Far lesser mentioned facts however are that trees breathe in CO2, humans breathe out CO2, methane strongly contributes to global warming and farmers keeping so many animals in such a small area is exceptionally bad for the environment, and major deforestation has occurred at the hands of humans. Humans are being so simple minded to assume that there's one simple solution to a complicated, long exacerbated problem that's been festering for far longer than we'd like to acknowledge, and we should have learned long ago after banning CFCs, which no one seems to remember, which were destroying the Ozone layer and caused a general cooling trend, that our gas emissions have a direct effect on the environment and that we, unfortunately have a tendancy to create a few problems for ever variable we change.

I would like to know who are the 97% of scientists the media constantly cites to justify telling everyone to drive electric cars? And I often wonder if they're too stupid to know that by simply not having cut down so many trees and replanting as much as we take, not keeping mass quantities of cattle shoved in such small areas, and not having overpopulated we wouldn't have such a serious problem? Or are the media and/or these "scientists" intentionally only telling part of the story? Are they being paid off? Many scientists are in someone's pocket. Is the public seriously ignorant enough to believe someone had a chance to ask 97% of the people across every scientific field their views on global warming? It's highly unlikely, and I'm personally guessing a scientist is just asked a yes or no question about believing in global warming and the media runs with their version of global warming regardless; they turned it into a political issue.

Global warming is not a political issue; humans are contributing to an atypical trend in the natural flow of climate change by allowing too much CO2 and CH4 to be released into the atmosphere and causing above normal temperatures. It's only natural in the sense that humans are natural; humans are having an impact on the larger trend that is dangerous for our own survival long-term, but then again, maybe it's only natural for us to destroy ourselves? Despite what the media tells you, you don't need to feed the capitalist system by buying an electric car to have any positive impact in the evironment: plant a tree, grow your own food and hunt wild game for your meat, walk instead of drive... Maybe not all of these or all the time, but my point is that everyone can make at least a small difference without having to buy a car that will do its own damage to the environment in due time anyway! Try to live in moderation, and try not to damage nature in excess of what is natural for you as a human being.

In 2018 let's all remember that we're stronger together than apart, in unison with nature rather than resisting it, and let's make a positive change; happy new year!

A New Dethcentrik track, and a few uncomfortable topics

Hey all! You read that right, new Dethcentrik, and not a remix! Let's let you listen to that before and/or while you read to maybe dampen the blow, or make or worse... Here you go!:

In a way this track is somewhat related to this topic. I'm going to get into the needs of people, the needs of the universe, and why the needs of one are objectively far more important than the other, why you're a terrible person for disagreeing with that, and how even those of us who believe the whole is most important are complete hypocrites.

The needs of humans

As individuals: As individual human beings, I think it would be safe to say that considering the needs of others does leave less for the individual. This leads to my core issue with society in this country, and for that matter the world, and perhaps it's just instinctive, but it's disgusting on so many levels. People who strive for self-success (and, to an extent we all do) often think only of themselves, and I feel that this attitude is not only the most deplorable moral outlook on life, this "take what I want, kill others and the environment by doing so, and preserve my happiness by ignoring suffering" (more on that in a minute), "and do whatever to whomever" attitude, but I feel it's become far more prevalent in recent time. These are the kinds of people who own shares in companies like Philip Morris international, willing to sue a government over regulation, and willingness to sell them to anyone in any place that they legally can. How few people are making money, and how many are dying? I personally get disgusted by Diamond commercials, because I think it's wrong to financially support violence over something shiny! And now, the culture as a whole is being taught this mentality to divide those who need each other so that the people in power can keep as much as they can! When I recently saw an Episode of Bill Maher, I turned it off at about this point:
If you can't tell me what was racist about someone telling people they have to act differently because their skin color is different, you're racist and probably technically retarded (meaning literally, it's an actual objective term that refers to a certain intelligence quotient level), but I don't think Ice Cube knows he's technically racist just like he probably has no idea rap isn't technically music. First of all, why does this country still preach and implement the ideas of eugenics? I do find it rather odd that people think the Democratic Party has changed so much since the days they were literally known as "the white man's party," considering "white" and "black" are both eugenics terms, eugenics being the very backbone of white supremacy, and I hear about "black" and "white" all the time from them. I'm not saying there aren't more malignant or even malicious racists in the "Republican Party" of today, but I am saying that if you support one of the two major parties, you support racism, whether you ascribe to it or not. This idea of helping as many people as we can as spread by the media and politicians, really ties back to a sociopathic/psychopathic egoist's conquest of exploitation. Why? Because evolution dictates that those incapable of survival should die, and yet "doing the right thing" is preserving people who should be dead, not for the sake of the one preserved, but for the sake of keeping another consumer around to work to death and milk for money, and it just strokes one's ego by manipulating those unintelligent masses. An explosive, like a firecracker, shouldn't need a warning label telling you not to hold it while it's lit, you're supposed to die if you're that stupid, that's just a fact. You shouldn't feel sorry for people like that, because you're stroking the idiot's ego, and therefore filling the wallets and stroking the egos of the wealthy, by validating people when they should not be...

As a species: As homosapien sapiens, we have to consider what we mean by best for the species: do we mean reaching our largest population, or lasting as long as we can? Let's take a different approach: what's best for the largest portion of humans we have here and now? We can't have all three, but let's start in order from the most egotistical and speciesist views to the least, and as we go along we'll transition into what's best for the the most biological entities and the universe, because my opinion is that the best option for us is actually the least species-centered of our options for survival as a species, but as an Atheist, I don't really believe in an objectively wrong answer. What's best for the people here and now? This is the most selfish option we can choose by far, the idea that the needs of the human alive today outweigh the needs of any other living thing. This mentality is directly responsible for rapid destruction of the planet, however, we have enough resources we've already raped out of the planet to take better care of people we do have. I am against suffering, and was recently disturbed by the increase in funding of Yemeni genocide and terrorism by the United States through supplying Saudi Arabia with even more to kill with, this is part of why the band released the track we did, some of those samples give an idea of the disgusting mistreatment humans receive. Our predominant politician sample in the track above came from this speech by Rand Paul, which I actually felt was very important:

This doesn't mean I agree with Rand 100% of the time, but you shouldn't dismiss him because he ran in the "Republican" primaries, in fact, never dismiss an idea, if it exists, even if entirely delusional, it has real world consequences, try and look at all the arguments, and find the truth for yourself. It is wrong to let people needlessly suffer, when we clearly have the resources to cause the suffering, we certainly have the means to at least decrease it without serious long-term repercussions, but egoism and a desire for control seem to be blocking us from doing so. That said, if we were all doing so well, the planet would not be, but we can certainly cut back on suffering by leaving well enough alone and not infringing on other people for personal gain. Having the largest population we can isn't necessarily a desire to destroy the planet, but it is inconsiderate of the fact that we'd be doing so. Like I said before, we preserve people who should not have survived beyond 200-300 years ago with the intelligence they have. Many humans have the speciesist notion that we can survive without nature's help, and are either deluded that we can maintain a much larger population and don't realize the damage overpopulation has already caused and will continue to cause. If we are to survive for a long period of time as humans, I feel we will be most successful as a species, we would have to learn to accept the reality that the world around us requires a balance that we cannot tip in order to save ourselves from extinction. Of all the options that involve us, this is the most in line with what you be more balanced for life and the universe as a whole.

The needs of the Universe:

For this segment, I will define the needs of the universe as the least amount of overall environmental destruction (universally), and the preservation of the most amount of biological life over the longest period of time. Our best option? Mass extinction. More life would be able to bounce back if we had a mass extinction, meaning, or so I hypothesize, that more living entities would exist during the existence of the universe if most of the ones currently around died.

Why we're all hypocrites and that's okay:

My favorite option? Let's find a balance and go with the option to keep our species around as long as possible, why? Because we're all a little bit egotistical and want living entities like us to survive the ages, but if we don't accept that nature will choose for us and do what's best for itself if we don't play along, we all lose anyway. And as a storm chaser (speaking of, find my fairly recently created profile on The Weather Channel's website here) I'm entirely hypocritical, I save people from being killed by a lack of knowledge and attentiveness. And we all likely have friends and family, and most of us likely ourselves would stand no chance of survival on our own. Let's find balance and make the world a better place so it will take more care of us!

A lot's going on

Hi again all!
I'm about to be busy, and I'm so excited!
First off, we're finally going to be finishing the next Dethcentrik album, here's a teaser:

In addition, I play guitar in a new band called f.kk.d:

And tornado season will be starting in around a month or so here. I'm really excited, and I can't wait to share this upcoming year with you!